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Chrissy Teigen pens a heartbreaking essay about losing son Jack

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Chrissy Teigen, who lost her son Jack a few weeks ago, has penned a heartbreaking essay about her pain.

 

On Tuesday, October 27, the 34-year-old supermodel opened up about her heartbreaking ordeal in a brave essay posted to Medium.

 

Chrissy Teigen pens a heartbreaking essay about losing son Jack

 

She wrote: “I had no idea when I would be ready to write this. Part of me thought it would be early on, when I was still really feeling the pain of what happened.”

 

She added: “I thought I would sit in the corner of my bedroom with the lights dimmed, just rolling off my thoughts. I’d have a glass of red wine, cozy up with a blanket, and finally get the chance to address ‘what happened’.”

 

Revealing what actually happened, Chrissy said she gave birth to her third child, a son named Jack, stillborn after severe complications four months into the pregnancy.

 

She went on to thank fans for their messages of support.

 

She continued: “Instead, I’m writing from the downstairs couch, still cozied up in a blanket but buzzing from a morning of friends and fried chicken. I’m reading off countless notes from my phone — thoughts that have randomly popped up in the weeks since. I didn’t really know how I would start this, no matter the room or state I was in, but it feels right to begin with a thank you.

 

“For weeks, our floors have been covered in flowers of kindness. Notes have flooded in and have each been read with our own teary eyes. Social media messages from strangers have consumed my days, most starting with, ‘you probably won’t read this, but…’. I can assure you, I did.

 

“But I will tell you, some of the best letters started with, ‘You don’t have to respond to this, but…’. After we first lost Jack, I found myself incredibly worried that I wasn’t able to thank everyone for their extreme kindness. Many shared incredible personal experiences, some shared books and poems. I wanted to thank everyone, share our story with each individual person. But I knew I was in no state to. For me, the ‘no need to respond’ note was such a true relief. I thank you for each and every one of those.”

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Narrating what happened on the day she lost, her son, she wrote: “One of the standout moments from that morning (or evening? I have no idea) was me going through the halls of labor and delivery, and John saying ‘What, is there a fucking party going on here??’

 

Chrissy Teigen pens a heartbreaking essay about losing son Jack

 

“Here we were, just wheeled down to a new floor, me covered in a thin blanket to hide, knowing I was about to fully deliver what was supposed to be the 5th member of our beautiful family, a son, only to say goodbye moments later. People cheered and laughed right outside our door, understandably for a new life born and celebrated. You kind of wonder how anyone is thinking about anyone but you.

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“At this point I had already come to terms with what would happen: I would have an epidural and be induced to deliver our 20 week old, a boy that would have never survived in my belly (please excuse these simple terms).

 

“I was previously on bedrest for over a month, just trying to get the little dude to 28 weeks, a ‘safer’ zone for the fetus.

 

“My doctors diagnosed me with partial placenta abruption. I had always had placenta problems. I had to deliver Miles a month early because his stomach wasn’t getting enough food from my placenta. But this was my first abruption.

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“We monitored it very closely, hoping for things to heal and stop.

 

“In bed, I bled and bled, lightly but all day, changing my own diapers every couple of hours when the blood got uncomfortable to lay in. I actually became an adult diaper expert for my own personal entertainment, truly appreciating the brands that went out of their way to not make me feel like an actual shitting baby. Some were blush colored, with drawn delicate flowers. I got to the point where I was actually like, ‘hell yeah, throw me the pink ones!’ — something I never thought I’d be excited for. But there we were.”

 

She went further: “Finally, I had a pretty bad night in bed, after a not-so-great ultrasound, where I was bleeding a bit more than even my abnormal amount. My bleeding was getting heavier and heavier. The fluid around Jack had become very low — he was barely able to float around. At some points, I swore it was so low I could lay on my back and feel his arms and legs from outside my belly.

“After a couple nights at the hospital, my doctor told me exactly what I knew was coming — it was time to say goodbye. He just wouldn’t survive this, and if it went on any longer, I might not either. We had tried bags and bags of blood transfusions, every single one going right through me like we hadn’t done anything at all.

“Late one night, I was told it would be time to let go in the morning. I cried a little at first, then went into full blown convulsions of snot and tears, my breath not able to catch up with my own incredibly deep sadness. Even as I write this now, I can feel the pain all over again. Oxygen was placed over my nose and mouth, and that was the first picture you saw. Utter and complete sadness.”

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At the time Chrissy shared photos shortly after the death of her son, some people called her out for taking pictures at such a moment.

 

Addressing it, she wrote: “I had asked my mom and John to take pictures, no matter how uncomfortable it was. I explained to a very hesitant John that I needed them, and that I did NOT want to have to ever ask. That he just had to do it. He hated it. I could tell. It didn’t make sense to him at the time. But I knew I needed to know of this moment forever, the same way I needed to remember us kissing at the end of the aisle, the same way I needed to remember our tears of joy after Luna and Miles. And I absolutely knew I needed to share this story.

 

“I cannot express how little I care that you hate the photos. How little I care that it’s something you wouldn’t have done. I lived it, I chose to do it, and more than anything, these photos aren’t for anyone but the people who have lived this or are curious enough to wonder what something like this is like. These photos are only for the people who need them. The thoughts of others do not matter to me.”

 

Read the full essay here.

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Harry Styles mocks Candace Owens and others who trolled his Vogue cover where he was wearing a dress

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Harry Styles has mocked those who trolled his iconic Vogue cover by eating a banana while wearing a frilly suit.

 

The 25-year-old sparked controversy by wearing dresses in his shoot for Vogue.

 

One of those who called him out is right-wing pundit Candace Owens who slammed him for wearing a dress and said it was time to “bring back manly men”.

 

Harry Styles mocks Candace Owens and others who trolled his Vogue cover where he was wearing a dress

 

She tweeted at the time: “There is no society that can survive without strong men.

 

“The East knows this. In the west, the steady feminisation of our men at the same time that Marxism is being taught to our children is not a coincidence. It is an outright attack. Bring back manly men.”

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Harry turned their criticisms around by using it as a caption to a post.

 

In the post shared to Instagram, the singer wore a powder blue blazer over a white frilled shirt, featuring pleated cuffs, and matching trousers.

 

Harry ate a banana in the picture, shot by Parker Woods for Variety, and captioned it: “Bring back manly men.”

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Harry Styles mocks Candace Owens and others who trolled his Vogue cover where he was wearing a dress

 

The picture was part of a shoot to accompany Harry’s interview with Variety, in which he also ate a pomegranate and wore a pale pink silk blouse by Gucci and a pearl necklace.

 

In the interview, the former One Direction star addressed his style choices and took pride in his Vogue shoot, saying: “To not wear something because it’s female’ clothing, you shut out a whole world of great clothes.

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“And I think what’s exciting about right now is you can wear what you like. It does’t have to be X or Y. Those lines are becoming more and more blurred.”

 

Harry is known for his eclectic and androgynous style, and in his Vogue shoot, he wore skirts and dresses as well as traditionally masculine trousers and shirts.

 

Admitting he always liked dressing up as a child, Harry said: “Clothes are there to have fun with and experiment with and play with. What’s really exciting is that all of these lines are just kind of crumbling away.

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“When you take away ‘There’s clothes for men and there’s clothes for women,’ once you remove any barriers, obviously you open up the arena in which you can play. I’ll go in shops sometimes, and I just find myself looking at the women’s clothes thinking they’re amazing.

 

“It’s like anything—anytime you’re putting barriers up in your own life, you’re just limiting yourself. There’s so much joy to be had in playing with clothes. I’ve never really thought too much about what it means—it just becomes this extended part of creating something.”

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It’s not that easy having another child and building a new home – Bisola Aiyeola

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Reality show star and actress, Bisola Aiyeola has shared her thoughts on having a nuclear family unit as a single mother.

 

In an interview with The Sun, Bisola stated that it’s not that easy having another child and building a new home.

 

She said;

 

“There’s the urge to have that close nuclear family unit and then there’s the reality; it’s not that easy having another child and building a new home. I’ve heard from other people’s experiences too. Somehow, I’ve been able to manage all these years with my daughter. I am proud of her; she’s in secondary school now. I just want to work on giving her the best. I won’t say that I am using torchlight to look for a family now, but if it does happen, I’ll embrace it with all of me. But the reality of it is that, it’s not as beautiful as it sounds.”

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Bisola also revealed that the COVID-19 lockdown not only drew her closer to her daughter, but also gave her the privilege to discover her other creative sides.

 

She added;

 

“The sit-at-home situation just made me know my daughter better. We had more fun, cooked together. I also found out that she loves art; she also discovered that herself. She’s kind of finding art interesting, as we did lot of painting together. In fact, there were lots of bonding between my daughter and I, because in the last few years, there have been lots of ups and downs; she’s always going to school. It just brought us together more and that’s one thing I am grateful for.”

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Practicing journalism in Nigeria is almost a waste of time- Journalist, Mary-Ann Duke Okon says as she considers leaving Nigeria to practice in another country

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Nigerian journalist, Mary-Ann Duke Okon has taken to Twitter to lament that practicing journalism in Nigeria is a waste of time over claims the media is ‘outrightly being gagged’ and not allowed to freely do its job.

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Mary-Ann also said she is seriously considering moving away from Nigeria to practice in another country.

She wrote:

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Practicing journalism in Nigeria is almost a waste of time these days, as the media is outrightly being gagged and not allowed to freely do its job. I’m officially open to working outside Nigeria, I’m seriously considering moving away and practicing anywhere else but here!.’

Practicing journalism in Nigeria is almost a waste of time- Journalist, Mary-Ann Duke Okon says as she considers leaving Nigeria to practice in another country

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